If you have to do it, you might as well do it right.

I want to say - thank you for this!

I want to say - thank you for this!

I want to say - thank you for this!

Beautiful site!

FR20Lj

FR20Lj

*sad meow*
awww, that was beautiful. Good job.

@shells
- It is tempting to judge from the outside (or looking back in time.) But you are right... we do our best, always.

@Mia
-I know, right!?!? Man, I was SO CONCERNED back then. I still am...but getting better every day.

@Obscura -
fake-spotting must have been a pretty valuable skill through the years. :)

This is interesting. I was on the reverse end of this and learned the same lesson.

I was on yearbook staff and allowed access to the popular kids. For a while I even thought they were my friends. Eventually it became obvious that I was only tolerated because they wanted their pictures in the yearbook.

Wile I never turned my back on a good friend I learned how to spot a fake and that true friends are precious few. Lessons that have served me well in the years since.

I regret being so scared and timid in school. It seriously stunted my growth socially and emotionally. I really can't believe that I was so scared of what people thought of me back then. There's a lot more that goes into this - I started having panic attacks and social anxiety when I was in 8th grade or so - but I wish I would have made more of an effort to talk to people. Either that, or just accepted myself for who I was, instead of hating myself so much. I wasted so much time.

xxx M

Another amazing inspirational lesson/story/experience that you have shared.

I have to confess that I have heard my mother tell me a thousand times “that she did the best she could with the knowledge that she had at the time”. Over the years it pissed me off because I felt it was an excuse for bad or irresponsible behavior but as I get older (much older) I really do get what she was saying. Rather you are in fourth grade or an adult the best you can do is work with what you have got!

Love you,

shells

@Lynnivere
- I love that idea of looking at all these choices as evolutionary steps. And "It's good to remember that you made the best choice you could at the time...." AMEN!

@Devious
-That was my experience, too. After time had passed, we were able to hang out as friends. But never quote like we were.

@Kay -
1st, thanks for catching the editing mess-up!
2nd, How wonderful that you learned from the hurt you caused. I was watching "Conversations with God" last night and the narrator says, "I wish I hadn't hurt so many people...but it got me where I am today." (paraphrased.)

@Cricket
- "is what molded you into who you are today." That is SUCH good advice to remember. It is why I am so adverse to the term "regret." Thank YOU!

I've turned my back on friends and family long ago back in Highschool. It was a girl I was dating who had my wrapped up around her finger. I was stuck. One day she managed to turn my best friend and I against each other by making false accusations about him. I, blinded by the "fun" my 17 year old body was having, shut him out. That bond was never truely repaired.

A few years later after the past was in the past we passed each other around town and BS'ed for a bit and went about our ways.

-Dev

I totally get this one!

It never feels great in the moment of leaping out in search of something else when it means we're leaving someone behind.

In our lives, we are lucky to have these opportunites.. not specifically to be in the *IN* crowd but to step in all sorts of directions. Believing somehow they will be good for us.. otherwise we would never decide to try it.

Most of the time when we choose to move with the consequence of leaving someone behind we have an evolutionary experience. Obviously from where you are now.. it was not your favorite choice but revolutionary nonetheless.

It's good to remember that you made the best choice you could at the time.

And even in all that Andrew gets it completely. Entities don't vibrate in forgiveness or lack there of.. both of those are too low on the vibrational scale. He gets you now like neither of you ever could in this life.

*love*

I have to agree with what you say about "going with the cool kids" kind of being like taking that apple in the Garden of Eden. I see many examples of people that once they did it the first time, they were forever finding themselves subconsciously "committed to being the cool kid".

I did something similiar with a gal by the name of Michelle but for me, the experience made me think twice after seeing how hurt she was.

Kat

PS: The "Fears.Regrets.Desires" theme comes up in the middle of your video rather than the end. Not sure why.

You're concience of how you treated Andrew is what molded you into who you are today.**HUG** I think we ALL have an Andrew in our pasts. Some of us STILL don't hang with the cool kids because of it !!
You are an inspiration to us all HAL !! Thanks for sharing and letting us into your deepest darkest moments. You ARE human, after all. You're purpose here on earth is to spread love and joy !! (Making up for anything in your past that you may regret). I always love your stories !!

~Jenn "Crickett"